My Green Cauldron

alone but not lonely

i have always been comfortable alone. i have never had a big circle of friends, i have never been one to go out and seek companionship. but for a long time i felt like i was missing out. the parties, the popularity, always busy, always on the go, friends here, friends there, friends everywhere. i have been doing work on being better and living better and thought dipping my toes into the exciting life of hustle and bustle was just what i needed. i made new friends, i went out often, i socialized and put myself out there. it was hard work! making and keeping connections, always being available to help said friends, planning, going, doing. well it wasn’t what i needed and i actually dreaded going out and talking to people, i forced myself to be chatty and cheery. all that activity drained every bit of energy out of me…….every. last. drop.

things needed for the hibernation season

coffee, journal, dirty computer

i have found for me that i am not fulfilled being that person, the one who is socially active, who has to be on the go all the time, and being the center (or just off center) of attention. i actually hate being in a crowd, even a group. i don’t connect with people when there are bunches around. i prefer to connect on a more personal level. i am not interested in the latest fashion or show on TV, i don’t want to talk about the weather (ok i may talk about weather in a deeper sense but not ‘how do you like all this rain?’ type of chit chat).

i have found that i want deeper conversations, i want a smaller group of friends who will explore thoughts and ideas without being offended and that they too are interested in the things being said. i want a handful for friends who truly listen, not just wait for a turn to speak. it is so so hard to find these days, especially in real life. so many so busy with the mundane, the superficial. i do have a couple of friends i love spending time with, even if it is just occasionally. i even have friends online that i really enjoy discussions with, who i have a deeper friendship, ones that actually help fill my cup instead of drain it.

i recently read the book Quiet by Susan Cain and it really struck a cord with me. it helped explain so much about how i interact with the world and the discrepancies i saw between me and those outgoing, fun folk everyone flocked to. i found it sad that all my life i have grown up thinking that there was something wrong with being quiet, shy, intellectual (these are not generally used as positive terms. our culture sees social, talking, chatty, outgoing people as the ideal and that we all must find that person in us in order to be successful in any aspect of our lives).

well, i am embracing my quiet, shy, intellectual side. i don’t want to be the center of attention, i don’t want a huge group of friends, i don’t want to force chit-chat, or do things to get out there and meet people. i am so happy to have a small circle of friends in which i have cultivated a deep friendship with, i am happy to stay home and chat online with a far flung friend for hours about topics important to us both, and i am happy to be by myself. i am no longer going to try and fit in, or be friends with everyone i meet. i will continue to show gratitude for all that i am and have, i will be compassionate and kind to every person i meet, and i will continue to follow my heart, even when i am saying no to all the things that do not bring me joy. although society says that i should fit into this particular box, i just do not and i can not make myself.

Savory Pie Crust

Here is the recipe for the pie crust for pot pie. make up a double batch and freeze the extras for next time.

Flour pie crust for pot pie

  • Servings: one pie crust
  • Difficulty: easy
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easy pie crust for all your pot pie needs


Ingredients

-1 3/4 cups flour, plus more for dusting

-1/4 tsp salt

-1/4 cup butter, cut into pieces

-1/4 cup coconut oil, cut into pieces (i place both the coconut oil and butter in fridge so they harden)

-6-10 tbsp cold water (i get a glass of ice water when i start so that i will have icy cold water when i need it.)

Directions


In medium bowl combine flour and salt. Using  pastry blender, cut butter and coconut oil in.The mixture is ready when it has coarse crumbs. Add water and mix until dough forms. Shape into a disc, wrap in plastic wrap and place in fridge at least fifteen minutes.

Roll out to eleven inches and use according to recipe.


Chicken Pot Pie

This is one of those comfort foods that instantly take me back to childhood, the steamy, savory pie coming out of the oven and the aroma filling our home. i LOVE this meal and it has become a family favorite with my husband and boys.


One Pot Meal:Chicken Pot Pie

  • Servings: 4-6
  • Difficulty: easy
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the ultimate comfort food


Ingredients


1 medium large potato, diced

2 carrots,chopped

3 celery stalks, chopped

1 smallish medium onion, chopped

1/3 cup butter

1/2 cup of flour

2 cups chicken broth

1 cup whole milk

1 tsp salt

1/4 tsp pepper

4 cups cooked, chopped chicken

1 pie crust, home made or store bought.

Directions

preheat oven to 400. saute potato, carrots, celery and onions in butter in cast iron frying pan for 10 minutes. Add flour to sauteed veggies, cook for about 1 minute stirring constantly. combine broth and milk and gradually add to veggie mixture. cook over medium heat until thick and bubbly. stir in salt and pepper, add chicken. place pie crust on top of skillet, cut silts, place in oven. bake for 45-50 minutes, until top is golden brown.

Waves

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soul-cation retreat 2016 Lake Michigan

standing on the edge

watching the waves come to shore

the water is cool

My Autumn Altar

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Altar for November

This is the altar i have prepared for Autumn. as the leaves fall i have collected colorful ones from around my property, there is are other elements that represent autumn to me, apples (we are surrounded by orchards), seeds from the wild plants and ones we have saved from the garden, poke-berries and milkweed fluff. this is a sacred space and the  crystals hold my intentions for the altar. it is here that i meditate, journal, and plan.

do you have an altar or sacred space? what important things are there for you?

My current read

I am finding this book very interesting.  The history of women from alternative sources (you won’t find this info in history class).

Any one else read this?  What are your thoughts?  I’d love to chat about it!

Autumn Haiku

it’s my favorite time of year and to celebrate it i have written a Haiku.

Cold wind blows stronger

Leaves twirl and dance to the ground

Autumn has arrived

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The five sisters. My favorite tree.